I'm so bloody shocked today after getting my Malay results. I mean what the F*?? I'm not saying I'm that smart but I think I'm below average for a pure native speaker like me. I think I'm beginning to hate that stupid language,man. I'm so demoralised by this result! B4 for a native speaker like me?! I compared my marks with the others who took Malay but it's uncomparable. Just sucks. Mum said to look at the positive side and never question God. I mean I studied hard and really really tried my best compared to some of them but why this??? Why God did not answer my prayers? This language really burdens my life. I'd rather learn other language and flop it. I mean, learning Malay is not going to get me anywhere. They don't even know what the hell is 'Malay' in the U.S or other non-Asian countries. So what if I do well in Malay? Be a Malay teacher? I'd rather shoot my brains out than be one. Oh well...just have to retake another exam then. I just wish that one day the MOE in S'pore will look into this matter and scrape away MALAY language!!!!!
